Can’t sleep love,
Timing is not up to us, but I know you’re thinking about us too. We are going to be inseparable.
I can hear your heartbeat…
Drifting me to sleep…
Monthly Archives: July 2011
‘love letters’: Distance
Mobile Minutes: Rush
For the past few years I haven’t been nearly as busy as I would have liked:
This week (so far):
Church/Dinner this morning
Starbucks this afternoon
Business meeting this evening
Monday-Wednesday job training all day
Coffee with a pastor
Online schooling for work
Running
Contact Attorney
Pick up company car on Thursday
…so far.
I’m busier this week than I’ve been in years!
Praise God I’m right where I’m supposed to be!
X: Next Up
*deep breath
These past three days have been absolute insanity. Driving every which way [almost logged 1000 miles of driving], wedding rehearsal, rehearsal dinner [I'll never travel to the Country Club Plaza ever again], wedding, wedding reception, and finally…it’s all over. Sam is on his way with his wife to Florida, I’m back where I’m supposed to be, and now life can continue.
Sunday:
Mo Val Baptist: Do I really need to say anything else? Talk about a whole lot of ‘get your praise on’ action! I’m stoked. Dinner afterwards, always a plus.
Starbucks: Sam may be gone, but I’ve still got some friends to go grab some coffee with.
Target: Getting new earbuds for running, I’m killing these things like you wouldn’t believe.
Mushball League: Multiple church softball-type league game starts tomorrow. Always fun to watch the Baptist and Catholics complain to each other.
Work: Work starts on Monday, I’m training and I’m pumped, I’m ready to get this party started [and make some money].
Confession: I’m seriously excited about being able to tithe on Sunday’s. I’m just excited about that. [if this was Twitter I'd place #fact next to that statement].
Thoughts from the wedding:
It was hard, it was very hard to get through on a personal level. I was so stoked for Sam, but at the same time I was saddened off the realization of what my past had landed me, and the strong desire to hold faith that someone is out there. The reception was a blast, Jimmy John’s always enjoyable, and a Pepsi to boot. Got home, was still a tad energized from the wedding [stressed works also], through on some running clothes and took off.
2 miles, 17 minutes. Yes, I know that isn’t insanely fast for those runners out there, but it felt incredible. It was hot, humid, gross on so many levels, but afterwards…so refreshed.
Running tomorrow?
I’d rather light myself on fire.
Time to head out tonight, it’s late and Mo Val is calling my name!
Get your praise on! Life is moving on, things can still be stressful, but He continues to watch out over me.
-D-
X: Wedding Challenge
In my checklist of life, I’m coming upon my next challenge in my daily activities:
I’m back in a geographically safe location
I’m near family that cares [though I drive them up the wall]
I’m away from the city
I’m able to start the recovery
Recovery is hard.
My best friend from high school is getting married tomorrow, and I’m in the wedding party. Tonight was the rehearsal and rehearsal dinner. I told myself going into the whole event that it could be a mental/emotional challenge. That it was going to be vital to ensure that the groom is relax and that he is having a great time.
I failed.
The majority of the people in that group this evening had last seen me with KJ at our wedding.
Strike 1.
I was in a party with people who were my age and were happily married.
Strike 2.
There were tears and laughter, excitement and tension, overall mystery of what great things tomorrow holds.
Strike 3.
I failed.
I hope I put on a good front this evening, for the sake of the group, and most importantly for Sam. Inside though, I was broken, my heart destroyed, and my soul filled full of anger. Nothing directed towards anyone involved in tomorrows celebration. I was angry at KJ and I was angry at myself.
I was angry at the people that we let down
I was angry and upset that my parents are going to sit through a wedding tomorrow, and it isn’t going to be their own son
I am disappointed that I couldn’t keep my promise
I am sad because of the amount of people that have been hurt
I am frustrated that my recovery isn’t going as I had hopefully planned
I’m merely venting of this evening. I found myself having to control my emotions [aka tears] from today. I’m stoked for Sam, but as I’m sure so many other people would already tell me, “Well I could have told you that”, this merely was a catalysis for myself. Granted it is late tonight and I’m thinking on all eight cylinders, but I know that I didn’t listen to God, I know that I broke His heart, I know that KJ got hurt, that her family was damaged, and I’m not about to say that things will be ok, eventually they will be, but not right now.
This is what I get, this is what happens when you fall, you fall hard and fast. God has blessed me with many things, ten times over, but He and I both know that no matter the worldly possessions…
My heart is still broken.
-D-
Mobile Minutes: Free
As is the theme as of late, I am completely relocated into a new life.
Went to my new Starbucks today. Got my drink, lady looks at me and says,
“Enjoy your drink, you’re free”
Get…your…praise…ON!
#getyourpraiseon
2:00am
I grew up through my teenage years loving thunderstorms.
I literally have not seen rain in weeks.
Stuck in the desert of July.
I just pulled up in a rain storm.
Thunder and lightning all around.
His way of saying, “welcome home”
Get your praise on
#getyourpraiseon
I’m on the interstate
I’m getting ready to hop on a state road
It’ll take me to another one
That’ll take me to a federal road
Which will take me to a two lane federal road
That’ll wind through corn fields and stars
Where I’ll wake up tomorrow
And never have to leave
Praise God, I’m heading home
#getyourpraiseon
I’m just going to call it as it is:
TODAY HAS ROCKED!
Have an individual that works in as a physical therapy specialist that is willing to take a closer look at me feet [why I'm having problems with my Achilles each time I run], her office is in Washington, D.C, where I just happen to be going in January for a wedding!
Get your praise on!
I’m moving out of the Ozarks tomorrow evening.
Get your praise on!
I slept well last night, barely waking up once.
Get your praise on!
I’m enjoying a fabulous cup of coffee from Starbucks this afternoon.
Get your praise on!
I start training for my new job the first of August.
Get your praise on!
My first new purchase is new running shoes.
Get your praise on!
God is continuing to provide for my circus of a life.
Get your praise on!
“Let everything that has breath, praise the Lord…”
-D-
Mobile Minutes: Revenge of Tech
Went to get a new piece of ‘rage running’ up on here…yeah…the whole file was corrupted. I’m part of the tech generation, but I swear video feeds and myself do not get along…
BAH!
-D-
