Last night the stars were excessively vivid…
The perfect moment when my hand will be linked with yours…
Monthly Archives: September 2011
‘love letters’: Stars
X: Repacking
Ah…the seasons have changed.
I’m waking up in a cool room with the breeze blowing, the flies are disappearing, the windows are staying open, and fall has once again come to greet me here. How I’ve missed it!
Like seasonal transitions, so to does my life continue to change. While I constantly joke about how ‘old’ I am, I do understand that sometimes you’ve got to take the first step forward in your own changes.
So what lies around the corner for this young chap in the month of October:
Finances: I’m getting ready to drop over $1000 on student loans; tomorrow. Obviously that’s going to sting like you wouldn’t believe and make the following two weeks rather challenging. However, that means that loan that I’m paying on, is finally caught up. It’s taken months, my credit score barely even exists, and I’ve taken some serious hits, but when October hits; we will be caught up. That’s worth two weeks of no Starbucks in my book. Aside from that, we’re aiming to knock out my credit card debt towards the end of the month, hit another student loan halfway through [not $1000 thankfully], and get on a schedule. Remember, originally October was the month of getting back on track. November was about getting ahead. So far, so good.
Health: While the pounds continue to drop [you can read more about that here], and I continue to somewhat actively workout. My diet has taken a serious hit. Not from eating the wrong food [though that has happened], but from not eating at all. Between the money spent to eat out somewhere [Subway], and just not being around the house during the day, and trying not to eat all of my parents food, I’ve been below 1000 calories on several days [not to mention that stint up north where I was working with no money to my name and raided a pantry in a hotel one night]. While ensuring that my finances are taken care of this month, I believe that my health needs to have a closer look. Yesterday I wound up at the optometrist because my right eye was all messed up. $80 later I had eye drops…and contacts…so, towards the end of October I’m going to be looking at a check-up, eye exam, and…possibly even a trip to the dentist. Furthermore, because of what the temperatures do here when it starts to head south for the year, because of my running I will be looking into UnderArmor cold weather gear. That will be a hefty purchase I probably won’t touch until November, but the research will be this month.
Soccer: Yes, because at the moment it is a rather large part of my life. Naturally, I’ll keep writing my thoughts over at WSU. Also, I’m halfway through my season with the U-8 ‘Peeps’ that I’ve been coaching, so I’ll wrap that up in October. Additionally, I’m playing with an indoor league in Kansas City, and that will continue on Friday nights. Because of the amount of running I’m doing, with work, with soccer it is wise that I pay close, close attention to my body. While I’d hate to not be able to play, or be able to run, not being able to work would devastate me. There is also rumors that I will be looking into a competitive indoor team near here during the winter months as well. More on that later.
Work: September was a good month for me. I was able to hit all my stores, knocked out all 42 of them, covered four more for a co-worker, and still got my end of the month bonus. I was rather disorganized to be honest. There is a lot of ’after hours’ paperwork that has be taken care of, and I wasn’t sure on the right way to approach it. Thankfully with my mad Microsoft Excel skills I have created a chart that outlines not only my tasks each day for the month of October in regards to work, but I’ve also started to keep a financial portfolio on each store as the months change, to see if they’re growing and dropping in sales. All of that will make my day-to-day life a lot easier in between stores. On top of this, I’ll also be traveling down south next week for a meeting with the head boss [DA of the territory]. We will be enjoying BBQ, horseback riding, and a nice all-day-long meeting the next day. Regardless though, the hotel and food are taken care of, and the breakfast at the hotel I’m at…has yogurt! So, no complaints from me. We’ll see what else I can do while I’m down south as well.
Repacking: Obviously the question is begged about the why the title of this ‘X’ entry to was entitle Repacking. While I’m blessed to have parents like MC and Jim, like all other children, you’ve got to leave the nest. I had made the note in October, last month, that I would start researching ideal places to move to within the area. As in going out on my own for good. Last night, along with today, and the rest of my end of the month vacation; I came across this. I’m going to send off a request for information today. It’s only a few miles inside North KC, and places me near all main highways to get to my stores. Of course the only fear is that with most apartments in today’s world, your credit score needs to be decent. Well, I’ll be the first to say that as of the past six months, how I even have a credit score is unknown to me. It’s been destroyed. I’m hoping that since my record with paying rent is flawless, some exceptions can be made. The rent here is $500 a month, and looks ideal. Saying a prayer for this would not hurt.
As for right now: It’s 1:30pm and I still haven’t gotten out of bed. I’m on ‘vacation’, which means that since I’m done with all of my stores for September, and won’t be back until October 5th due to the staff meeting, I’ve got several days to do whatever I want; including catching up on this.
More coming later today [maybe next entry].
In case any are curious, I was served my ex parte, I cannot be in contact with my ex-wife at all [which won't be a problem on this end], and I think we can finally say, with a sigh of relief…
…it’s all over.
-D-
‘love letters’: Awake
Beautiful,
There will be days in which I’ll get up before you.
When you’re waking, roaming through the house, pay attention to where you are…
…there will always be a note signed to you…
Love,
Me
X: Monday Morning
Question of the day:
Is it wrong to smile on a Monday morning?
Because I am.
Today unofficially begins my ‘weekend’ in direct relation to my job. So, here is what I’m thinking for the upcoming eleven days:
Monday:
Take care of two stores for a co-worker. Why: Extra money and makes myself look reliable.
Finish all the monthly paperwork for my job
Eat left-over pizza
Run for a few miles
Watch Terra Nova and Alphas
Play Simcity
Tuesday:
Take care of two more stores for a co-worker. Why: Note Above
Create my ‘store list’ for October
Run for a few miles
Play Simcity
Try to get into the optimistic [Eye problems]
Wednesday:
Check in on one of my stores to see how their remodel is going
Fill out their evaluation
Look into selling my camera [primarily for upgrade reasons]
Run for a few miles
Sporting KC game down in Kansas City, Ks at 7:30
Thursday:
Drive to another store that has recently opened, introduce myself, eat a giant tenderloin up there
Soccer practice with my ‘Peeps’
Friday:
Pay Day=pay student loan back payments from the divorce [because I can finally afford it]
Road trip to get my hair cut
Home high school football game?
Saturday:
No clue…
I’m getting ready to get up, shower, and head off to these few stores in KC, and I can’t keep from smiling.
I’m blessed and I know directly to whom the praise goes.
-D-
P.S. I did get ‘served’ again last night by the sheriff. It was for the ex-parte order from the judge. I’m please to say that it will not negatively affect me in any way. Definitely an answered prayer.
X: Where We Go From Here
So…
For those of you who pay attention to what goes on over here you may have been curious about the most recent Mobile Minutes entry labeled ‘Legality‘. In it, it sheds some light myself being served from the county sheriff based off information obtained from this site by my ex-wife. It’s an open site and anyone can access it; I knew that before I entered into this digital world.
It saddens me that words have been twisted to mean things they were never intended to. If I told you that I wasn’t angry when I got served (again) two Saturday’s ago; I’d be lying. However, I’ve had plenty of time to think this one over and I’ve started to do something that I didn’t even know that I was capable of doing…
Forgiving.
When I was in high school a friend of mine was brutally murdered by a fellow classmate. Completely rocked the small community I grew up in. It took years, but one day it finally clicked, “It’s not my position to be bitter, or to hate. That’s not why I exist.”
Flash forward to the present day. I’m faced with a similar situation; I have an individual in front of me, that is struggling to leave me alone and allow me to go on with my life; and in all honesty…has given me every reason in the world to hate them.
I can’t. Not because of feelings, or any of that dramatic junk…just because I’m not that person. It’s obvious that we need to stay FAR apart from each other, but the fact is this: my life has been revolutionized since the divorce, in ways unheard of. Some of the blessings haven’t even made it over to this site.
I’m divorced.
I’m an ex-husband.
I now have a restraining order against me because of the thoughts I wrote and my poor choice of word structure.
God still hasn’t left me.
I’m blessed.
Mobile Minutes: Texas Quote
After confessing to anger, this was a blessing…
“…it is ok to be angry, Jesus was angry, it is an emotion given by God. It is what you do with it that matters…”
‘love letters’: Pillow
Love,
While lying in this empty hotel room, I awoke to find my arms wrapped around a pillow. How sweet it will be when it is replaced by you.





