I get down,
He lifts me up,
I get down,
He lifts me up,
Every time I’m down the Lord lifts me up.

Yes, those are indeed the old school lyrical success of a band known only as Audio Adrenaline; one of the first bands I came across as a young Christian that I fell in love with [now youth make fun of me for my taste in 'old music'].

As stated in yesterday’s rather…depressing entry; the past few days have not been the kindest to myself. Most of this I place strictly on myself for allowing to take place. I happily admit that today has been a better day [aside from MC waking me up because a cat puked on the computer keyboard].

I trace all of this back the nightmare I had last night, for one reason or another it proved to be the turning point of the bitterness that I had held onto for the past several days. No, I don’t know who was with me [ya'll are just going to have to wait], but I was flying down this two lane road into this industrial area just west of a small mountain range. Why was I speeding? Because I had to make it to the intersection [I was driving west], and head south in order to get out of the path of the windstorm [tornado chasing #101 right there]. I turned left as the storm hit. A wooden shed splintered into pieces across the road, a grain elevator collapsed, and the semi in front of me was tossed to the side [top heavy]. I think 80mph in this car would be ‘cruising’ in the dream. I mean I was straight up flying down the road, I had to escape this thing that was devouring the world around me…again.

That’s when MC burst through the door and woke me up:

Scamper [cat] puked on the keyboard! What do I need to do? Run water on it?

That was at 6:30am. Then work called me to see if my paperwork was done for the month. Then a store told me they were opening tomorrow [meaning my vacation was losing a day].

Then I went back to bed.

At 11:30am the UPS driver woke me up from banging on the door. I walked out in nothing but shorts into the freezing cold air and grabbed one of my parents gifts [secrecy folks; my 'rents are sneaky when they want to be]. It was at that point I decided to wake up for good. Took a shower, ate left over turkey [like every other soul in the United States], and planned my trip to Starbucks [day off today if you couldn't tell].

It was at this point that I started to feel better. Maybe I was just hungry. I know that through many discussions with God over the past several days I was finally worn out from arguing, [you know that sensation, when you've argued so much that you're tired and you just give up...MC knew that feeling alot ...]. I just gave up, acknowledged that life can be what I make it, or what He makes it through me; put my computer together and went to town.

While sitting here [yes, I'm still at Starbucks]; I first found a Facebook message from one of the elders from the church I attend. Turns out him, like many other random people I keep discovering, find their way over to this site and read up on my thoughts. Personally, I’m always humbled to hear that people do read this jargon. The message was deeper then that though, it was a letter of concern of recognizing that I’ve gone through a ‘bit’ in my life as of late and I’m just trying to readjust. Most importantly though he was quick to say that him, along with his family, believe that I’m worth it [also the individual who got me into the U-8 Peeps]. It was comforting to not only know that these individuals care, but it further demonstrates the passion that the individuals of this church demonstrate to those they may not know very well.

After getting through that message [and trying to figure out how to exploit it in here], I came across a comment made over at the Welcome Center. This was from an individual that was interested in using my photos in relation with the Department of Economic Development. While filing through this information, I came to discover that no store was opening tomorrow, it was a typo [which means I'm spending the day at B&N]. While this was going on, my phone began to ring [not the bat phone, my personal phone]. It was a sales rep from Sporting KC, he was just checking in on me after Thanksgiving and we jawed on soccer for about thirty minutes. No purposeful sales pitch here, but all major sports teams; if you want to bring people back, watch Sporting KC. There was no pressure for season tickets, even purchasing tickets; it was just about Sporting, a few trades, and learning that an intern this individual worked with was actually Jo’s backup goal keeper at SBU [trippy]. It was a pleasant conversation. After his phone call, I had a new e-mail from DED discussing the use of my photos, giving myself credit, which photos, etc…Yes, that slightly freaked me out in an awesome way.

Finally, I started to get text messages. I’ve got to brag on this kid a bit; her name is K8. She’s put up with me off an on for five years now. Spiritually amazing and humbly handling her human form. In other words; she rocks. Anyways, she’s always managed to be around to spiritually kick me in the teeth [when needed], and due to life being just that…life, she has been busy. It makes my days just a little bit longer, and today she finally fired back some texts and wanted to know what on earth was bothering me so much lately. It was so nice to get it out and be reminded of the blessings that encompass the concept of my life.

So, with all of that said [talk about a busy day already], really it was a nice realization to me that God loves me. He’s going to get me through it. He knows I get angry, and He knows I whine, but in the end He still loves me, and when I’m willing He will bless me.

Who else is stoked that it is only 4:00pm [CST]?

Thank you all for tolerating myself, entertaining myself, and reading about…myself. Because of your rather sick curiosity I can also post this as a concluding thought.

WE’VE GONE PAST THE 5000 VIEW MARK ON FILINGTHEPAPERS!!!!

That’s worth giving some praise for!

-D-

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