Monthly Archives: January 2012

X: Protection


I don’t have all the answers.

Life, anger still gets the best of me every now and then [ask MC].

However, even though I was never a ‘big brother’ to anyone [only child], there still is this ridiculous sensation that is dictated and expected of the older male  sibling; protection.

It’s this inherent responsibility that just exists within my soul.

I. Have. To. Protect.

Even when I’m walking with Jo, she always will walk on the right side of the sidewalk. Why? Because I’d much rather be on the side near the moving traffic, it’s just designed in my head that it is correct.

That’s why I nearly loose my cool when a girl tells me that she’s gotten back with the boy that cheated on her [additionally, after being accused of such action myself, partially leading to the divorce is salt in the wound].

I suppose I just don’t understand. How can an individual look into the eyes of what God declares as beauty [as should we] and treat them so poorly? I’m not one to say I’m perfect, but I can say this; I open car doors, room doors, I pull the chair out, and I’m not afraid to tell someone their beautiful.

I have absolutely no idea how this ties into the overall theme of this website, but I can say that this is something that is just grinding under my skin. The irritation is worse than that of vinegar on a sunburn [trust me, I'm pale]. Not once should I make the claim to being the holy roller, the one to protect His daughters…HE PROTECTS HIS DAUGHTERS. I’m just tired of seeing men, including ‘men of God’, not getting this basic concept:

To pursue her heart, you first must seek His permission.

God isn’t ‘old school’, He’s protective.

-D-

…filing under the category of ‘rant’…


#getyourpraiseon


Weather is so nice the window is rolled down!

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Mobile Minutes: Car Repairs


Out near K-7 getting the car worked on. One belt is equaling two hours worth of work.

DOES ANYONE ELSE REALIZE THAT IT IS NEARLY SEVENTY DEGREES OUTSIDE AND THESE FEET NEED ASPHALT!?!?!

…running breakdown…


Mobile Minutes: Worked Over


As was possibly the suspect…I’m getting worked over today…

  • Alarm malfunctioned
  • Super tired
  • Corporate Exec is evaluating stores in my area
  • WPS folded for the season

This was anticipated. Expected. The devil tries to bring his ‘A’ game when God’s doing great things…

Sorry devil, but God owns you…even when I struggle…


Mobile Minutes: Game On


Buzzing with the Holy Spirit last night.

Alarm malfunctions.

I’m not an hour behind for work.

Game on devil.


#getyourpraiseon


Must be up to start work around 5:00am.

That’s rough.

I have five stores to cover tomorrow.

That’s rough.

I have the rest of the week off after tomorrow.

Get. Your. Praise. On.

-D-


X: A Tenth


Tithes, offerings, the money you put in the plate on Sunday’s.

Not. For. Me.

Confession: I am absolutely dead awful in following through with God’s desire to have a tenth of my income.

I mean, it isn’t because He needs it for anything. His roads are made of gold, His gate entrance is a giant pearl. I mean, seriously, I can be using my money for more beneficial things [cue Starbucks rants from everyone reading this].

I’m arrogant.

For years I found reasons not to give, whether it be bills, or it be forgetting the money, or whether it just be out of pride and arrogance.

Tithing and myself didn’t get along…at all.

Obviously, if you haven’t gathered it yet through FilingThePapers, my life is rather…entertaining, and crazy blessed. Bills getting paid, cars being driven, work going well, weight has been lost, it’s great. The paycheck from work is one of the best perks.

God has blessed me, a sinner undeserving, and finally; through the conviction of the lovely’s at MoVal, and just God, Himself; I couldn’t take it anymore. I had to tithe, not because of an obligation, or something to check off of my Sunday list, but because who am I to take what God has given me, keep it to myself, and not show praise to Him by delivering just a piece back to Him? What kind of hypocrite makes a website about how God protects and blesses His followers, when I can’t even follow His desires of obedience?

Last Sunday I set out to tithe at church, and forgot the money at home. I was tired of living lies, and finally told the girl visiting MoVal with me that I struggle with tithing; just was upfront and admitted as some ‘great’ Christian; that I fail.

It held myself to the fire, I love this kid to death, and her frequently coming to church with me is just blowing my mind at God’s grace, and I can’t stand between her and God; neither can my financial arrogance.

Bills are coming, bills are being paid, bigger bills are coming, but today I stood at the ATM, already running behind for a Sunday, and took out what I needed to fulfill a tenth of my earnings to give to Him. Telling myself that He’ll take care of me. I mean, good grief, look at what He’s already done.

The same words, echoing in the chasm that is my head, kept rotating throughout the day. Spoken from the stage of MoVal:

God says He will bless those that follow Him. You think He’s kidding? Give; God is daring you to tempt Him.

Already, God has been blowing my mind, just a few hours later.


X: Powersuit


It was several years ago, probably around the second semester of my sophomore year of college:

Due to my ‘love’ for politics, I had finally decided [after being held to the stove by my adviser] to declare a major in Political Science [what?], because of this I now was bent on spending a good chunk of my life in a brick building, learning about…uhhh…hmmm…the ‘science’ or political rhetoric? The top of this building was the school of history and political science [meaning once I declared my second major in Social Science Education, I lived in this place], but the bottom floor was the school of business.

I tried a business class in college, having quite a bit of success in ‘business’ classes in high school. It didn’t even take two days before I dropped and replaced those classes. I was so bored, I didn’t care, the only thing I cared about:

The powersuit.

As a political science nerd, I were shorts, a t-shirt, and a faded, out dated baseball cap to class…every…single…day. Those business kids though, whoa, they would be walking down the hall in their suits and ties, skirts, and heels. It was intimidated and envy creating all together.

I wanted that powersuit.

Side Note: Just for entertainment sake, one of the individuals that I constantly crossed paths with, who was in the business department, always sporting classy threads was none other than K8.

There was something about a suit, the way it feels, the presence of it. If you hadn’t gathered yet, I’m a rather ‘outgoing’ individual, and as one person once said, “You take up the room when you enter.” [this was after I lost the weight] Due to speech competitions in high school I had grown quite fond of the suit and tie combo, and because of my frame, honestly…I looked good in it.

Teachers don’t wear suits [except at parent-teacher conferences and professional development 'conferences'], and since I was definitely was not ever going to become a pastor of any sorts; I figured that by becoming a college professor [someday] I would get to wear the outfit to work…someday.

Reality hit [also known as the creation of this site]. For most of my life I had sported a hat, apron, polo, and khakis at my lovely Subway store; it was OK, but it was a uniform. Nothing more.

Between you and me [and of course God], I felt so comfortable in a suit, not power hungry, but between the on stage appearance, a slight desire of politics, and just socializing in all sorts of places in my life; in many ways that tie and those slacks became my sweatpants.

^That was a the story background^

It was Thursday last week, one of the insane days of my life associated with my job, I had gotten up late because of the straight up exhaustion from the previous night. Showered, shave, and got my ‘work clothes’ on. Got to my store, took care of the place, filed my evaluation, stopped over to speak to another store owner, and headed to my small group or Thursday night bible study.

It was when I walked into the house, and was ‘attacked’ by two of my favorite soccer players, and started munching on some awesome red pepper slices [strange addiction]; one of the lovely individuals from MoVal made the claim, “Is that what you where to work?”

[pause to go back up and read the background].

That’s when it dawned on me.

Slacks, white under shirt, white button up shirt, black dress shoes, crimson red tie, clean shaved, sunglasses resting on my head, while hitting the ‘lock’ button on the car.

The powersuit.

While some are quick to make the claim of my ‘spoiled’ life, I for one will not completely disagree, and will admittedly note that I am undeserving of any of this life. However, I find it insanely unique that five years ago I dreamed of this outfit, this life, and had absolutely no idea how or if that would ever come true.

I did not do a single thing to ‘earn’ this. I place that suit, that car, and this dream at the feet of my God. Noting all I have, is really never mine.

As I gear up for another day, getting ready, pouring coffee, and letting His son [sun] touch my face. I smile; knowing that through all those dark days…He protects me.

Do not be afraid of what you are about to suffer. I tell you, the devil will put some of you in prison to test you, and you will suffer persecution for ten days. Be faithful, even to the point of death, and I will give you the crown of life.

-D-


Daily Grind [Photographic Therapy]



#getyourpraiseon


Coffee with MC over at Starbucks in KC.

Good ole mother-son time.


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