XXXI: Chaos Theory


Humans are officially one of the biggest, hottest messes to exist this side of the galaxy. This is what I’ve come to believe over the past week; namely taking cue from my own social existence.

It amazes me how drawn we are to conflict and chaos. Life can be peachy, we could be in a ‘honeymoon’ phase of reality, yet we’re not satisfied until we find a problem that needs a solution. Does anyone else understand what I’m referring to? Continue reading

Mobile Minutes: Come & Go


I’m under the assumption that this is part of growing up…

You can’t give 100% commitment to everything.

In a strange, weird, fun turn of events I’ve been requested of my social media knowledge, at school. It turns out our administration has a desire to be an interactive school for parents and students. That’s seen through social media, such as a YouTube channel for the building. There’s much more detail to that, but it has equaled time teaching about my trade. Very cool, humbling, and a very weird way God has shown me how He’ll use previous jobs in my current life.

I’ve also been blessed with the opportunity to be in the “summer academy” for instructors this summer. It’s practically summer school for teachers, plus pay and graduate hours.

Furthermore, tomorrow I’m meeting with our school’s cross country coach on potentially coming on board for next season. This includes running the 100 mile club over the summer with students. Another humbling moment of seeing God prepare the direction for my life.

With that said though, there’s another side to this coin. Those events have knocked me out from going to El Salvador this summer. I’m sad I won’t be able to go, but I love knowing many more opportunities will exist down the road. Also, as a large mistake tonight showed me, I’m not able to balance commitment like I should to other organizations. Sadly, in the near future I’ll say goodbye to another organization that’s meant the world to me, but that’s because they deserve someone that’ll be 100% invested into their program.

I’m a teacher now, I can’t be.

It’s a hard lesson to learn, but I’m sure I can fill it under “growing up”.

-D-

XXXI: Fresh Start 2.0


What if we got our Christmas present early this year? We can grab it on Black Friday probably…

Thankfully, I’m still in awe at how good God is to us, especially considering that none of us deserve any of His grace. It’s been an adventurous, heart warming past couple weeks for Darco and myself. As noted in the earlier post, I was offered a teaching position at the school of my dreams for next year. I gladly accepted. Darco’s review for promotion was yesterday, and again I’m humbled to report that she also was promoted to store manager of her Starbucks location in the city. These are both major changes for both of our careers, each of which we hold delicately and passionately. Continue reading

#getyourpraiseon


Bragging on Darco here…

She’s recently been an acting “in-training” store manager for Starbucks. Tomorrow is her assessment to become a full-fledged store manager, so it only makes sense that her store was audited today…haha…

Starbucks has their own company that solely works at inspecting their stores throughout the country. They score each store off 100 points.

Remember, her assessment is tomorrow…
She just called me…
Her store just received a score of 93!

Just an amazing woman.

-D-

Darco’s Corrections: Ecosure is a 3rd party auditor to prevent bias. They do dozens of different companies.

XXXI: Through The Motions


I can’t even express to you the struggle of motivation that i’ve faced throughout today. In some instances Saturday’s are the best, but in others they are the absolute worst. Waking up late, snacking on random chocolate pieces throughout the apartment, and catching up on past television shows.

All while knowing that I need to go to the gym, get my daily run in, lift weights, and as some older generations have stated, “blow the stink off of me”.

It’s just hard to get going. Continue reading

Mobile Minutes: Poser


Dear Diary…

It’s been two days since I did any sort of running. Last week, in preparation for the race on Saturday, I took it easy. On Saturday I gave it my best, but was sadly lacking. Today, I’m struggling for the motivation. I’m tired and have a bedtime quickly approaching. I’m tempted to head to the gym, but I’m just not feeling “up to snuff” for the track.

Perhaps I’m just becoming lazy, or I’m just disappointed in where I’m at with my goals. I need to have my mile at 5:00.00 by June 1, 2015 and the fastest I’ve moved is 5:57 in the month of April.

I should be faster. I should be lighter with a stronger core. Mentally, I feel so week. I know what I’m supposed to be doing, but I keep falling short. Drink more water, eat less garbage, get appropriate rest. I received 5.5 hours of sleep last night, I can feel it in my body. Do I rest, or is that an excuse to get out of work? What’s an excuse versus a warning?

I’m sure I’m thinking too hard on the simple thought. I met a teacher today that ran in college, and even after starting a family, still has 6:50 splits on half marathons. It’s humbling and humiliating to recognize that some inherent the ability, but others…we’re on the outside looking in. It causes motivation, at times of question, difficult to come up with.

It’s worship. Do I need an excuse for worship? Does God care if my offering is first or last, on the track or in the gym? No, He simply wants to hear from me, so why do I fear the protocol of success?

My success only comes through Him, whatever that may look like. I know my heart’s desire, but the work and grace required to find that desire is so frequently burried below guilt, fear, and embarrassment.

Thankfully enough of these written thoughts is enough to allow mmee to move.

-D-