XXXI: Default


Your loan has been accelerated…

*yawn*

Trying to reestablish my thought process this morning. I haven’t even touched my coffee yet and it’s already 8:30 AM.

Stress…

I’ve been mulling over how to be honest without shattering any self-esteem that may be left in my body. I suppose self-esteem isn’t really needed when an individual tries to remove their worldly desires. However, I can say this soundly…

I failed. Continue reading

XXXI: Every Step I Take


Every step I take,
I take in you,
You make move Jesus
Every breath I breathe,
I breathe in you,

The simple lines reverberate back memories of mission trips, summer camps, and when life was overall easier. Less facial hair, less stress, and an overall appreciation for simplicity…without even knowing it at the time. Even last night at my parents house I found a 31 page paper that I had typed out of spite towards one of my professors. Reading over the text I was humored at how naive I was at the time (and also how my grammar could be relatable to my sixth grade students). Continue reading

XXXI: Double Edged Sword


I’m still on a learning curve, and I fear that I’m going to be here for a while. Part of the experience that comes with hanging out inside a middle school all day is rearranging my day-t0-day and hour-by-hour schedule. Praise God that I’m actually injured and out of the running for a few weeks because this evening perfectly captured the learning that I’m still trying to process. Continue reading

#OPTURKEYCARVING Part V


It’s officially Friday, and Darco is fast asleep. I’ve been drinking water, trying to get my stomach under control (dehydration).

I’m pleased to report a #getyourpraiseon moment from Thanksgiving. A major hurdle was conquered for myself today.

I picked up a child.

Understand something, I’ve always been fearful of breaking small children. That’s just who I am. However, a little 3 1/2 year old kept asking me to pick him up. I did so, and listened to him laugh. We went through the process of lifting him in the air, and carrying him around for about ten minutes. Darco caught it, and MC caught it. I’m sure it gave my mother hope that she’ll eventually be a grandmother, and I know it warmer Darco’s heart. I’m sure anyone reading this is snickering, but let me assure you of this…

This is the first time I’ve ever picked up a child in my life.

-D-