XXXI: Three Steps Back


Last week, at the pinnacle of frustration, I stopped running. I mean that I quite literally haven’t ran since last Tuesday. That’s the longest period (five days) consecutively that I haven’t done anything fitness related in well over a year. I spent the time with my wife, explaining to her why I just don’t want to run, how the fire just burned out.

it’s a strange sensation. It wasn’t that I was tired of running, and personally I was enjoying the results. However, to be honest, it’s hard to keep moving when you’re trying to impress one person…and they don’t always notice. I simply shared that to Darco, because I want her to be proud that she’s married me. The hope is that she got a guy who doesn’t play video games (usually), stays in shape, cooks, cleans, etc…Most of this stems directly from a previous marriage where my existence was debatable at best.

I suppose what I learned from all of this was a few key pieces:

  1. You really can’t do anything by yourself. Sure, I can run by myself without issue. However, it still takes a crew of motivators, if nothing else, to keep me moving each day.
  2. Breaks are alright. Five days worth of horrible eating, too much coffee, and dehydration. I’ve been bad on my body, but thankfully five questionable days outweigh a years worth of the same habits.
  3. I am strong. Even though I’ve been off the running circuit lately, I’m ready to get going again. Three, four, five years ago if I would have been off, I would have easily stayed off.
  4. Good ideas can stem from time away from the road. I’ve enjoyed my fun on the road, and I completely understand that for the vast majority of people there is no joy behind running. However, that isn’t the same as just moving. The belief, “If you’re moving, you’re winning”. I’ve chatted with Darco about making a family fitness and health blog. It may take her a while to come around, but I think that kind of side project would keep us both vested in the opportunities that exist outside of just running.

With all of that said…

I’m ready to hit the gym*.

-D-

*It’s nearly 100 degrees outside, I’ll be training inside where it’s safe.

XXXI: Running Out


Another step.
Another minute.
Another goal.
Another mile.
Another dream.

I’ve been considering giving up the ambition of running. I haven’t hit a wall, I haven’t been dealt too many injuries, and I’m not really on the verge of burning out.

I’m just tired of being my own fuel. Continue reading

XXXI: Butterflies


It is a two prong thought, both stemming from the realities of the day.

For the past two days, while Darco has been out of the country, I’ve been attending a series of classes for educators within our district. Some of the classes have been great, some of them…not so much. It was during my first class this morning, I was sitting across from my mentor teacher assigned to me from our school, and I confessed that I was nervous about the beginning of the school year. I felt that I wasn’t prepared, I wasn’t sure what I was doing, and it was kind of settling into a panicked state within my heart and soul. I’m still embarrassed tonight typing out that thought. Continue reading

Mobile Minutes: Shifting Priorities


Sometimes the day just doesn’t work in our favor.
*gasp*

Yesterday I didn’t sleep well due to excitement, I was getting my school issued MacBook during a morning meeting. Upon arrival, way too early in the morning, I sat through two hours of ‘turning it on, and turn it off again’. It was a worthy sacrifice for the computer. However, what caught me off guard was learning that we had a second training meeting.

July 31, 2015. Continue reading

XXXI: Summer Time (Finally)


Go figure I’d write this on June 21st (first official day of summer). I can firmly say that I’m officially embracing the summer break of 2016. My tests are finished for certification, I’ve already had my first few teacher meetings for the summer, my mission trip is finished up, and I’m actually looking at my first week of the summer where I don’t have anything slated.

Meaning, I have no excuse on getting distracted. Even though we’re still in June, the reality is, is that school starts back up in less than two months. Factor in that this will be my first year teaching and the work that comes with it, and already I’m breathing a little uneasy. i’ve got books to read, lessons to prepare, and even a curriculum to better understand. That doesn’t include the fact that I need to actually get into my classroom, acquire design pieces, and start to put the room together (at least mentally). I’m sure my typing smells of ‘new teacher’, but that’s half the fun in my book. For some strange reason it’s worth going the extra mile to have fun with your students, while also teaching them in the same manner. If the dynamics of the classroom are off, the students will be distracted…and so will I.

Currently, inside this classroom I have two walls that are nearly 100% dry erase boards and two walls that are brick. I’m thinking of theming the room to some weird, strange coffee and Japanese cafe world. I just can’t handle the concept of teaching in a sterile environment. It’s not fair to the students.

I suppose in these coming weeks that’s going to be my life in a nutshell. Working on lessons, living the real version of “The Sims” when looking at my classroom, attending some classes, and of course…running. Today was my first day off in seven days. I feel alright, I definitely need some new shoes as I’ve passed the 500 mile threshold on both of my pairs, but my legs are doing better.

I think body mechanics is a fascinating topic to explore when learning about your own body. When I started running again, even all the way up to the recent months, my knees and legs were the sorest parts of my body. As I told my doctor a few weeks ago though, something has changed in my mechanics. I’m not sure what, but those areas no longer host the most soreness after a training session.

My hips do.

This is actually encouraging for me. That tells me that my legs have strengthened and now I’m going to continue to work on developing my hip muscles; they tend to be rather important in the fast, repetitive motion of the style of running that I enjoy. With life finally calming down, I can also ensure that I’m getting in every valuable workout that I can. Darco and I are heading out east in the final week of July for the Liberty Mile and to see some pretty epic friends.

I’m alright with this life. There’s so much to always work on, but that’s coming to be part of the joy behind all of it. Teaching, running, praising…trying to be more optimistic, more forgiving, and asking for my forgiveness are definitely on my list of things I’d like to improve upon.

I guess here’s to a happy summer full of exploration, knowledge, and dreams!

-D-