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O: When You Tithe…


I’ve been waiting for this post…impatiently.

Disclaimer: All things typed here was done so with the approval via text message of our director of media.

Sometime ago I made a post about tithing at church, and how it drove me insane and openly admitted that I struggled with it. Nothing really has changed from that original position, aside from the churning in my soul of trying to do the right thing, humble myself, and tithe.

So, with stress building up, the account dwindling I decided last week (05/12/2013) that my first fruits were going on a check, to MoVal, and what would happen would be what happened.

Usually, along these lines that many modernist would suggest as ‘reckless’ I would image that everything financial would go wrong. However, the moment that I had placed that check in the passing plate, the unbelievable started. Along these lines, I’d like to show a correlation to a  mixed bag of goodies from what I learned yesterday at MoVal:

Monday (05/13/2013): After receiving a late night phone call from Customs in Atlanta, Georgia I was informed that our crazy patient player from Scotland would be delayed a day and not arrive until 05/14/2013. She had been held up because they couldn’t understand the idea of her playing for the Kansas City Shock and why she’d be in and out of the country so much as of late. Needless to say; she arrived in one piece [finally] on Tuesday.

Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy

Tuesday (05/14/2013): Aliesha arrived at the airport [on time], and Darco and I went to go meet her there. At the same time, Jim had posted on Facebook that the plant would be closing…for good. While the joy of having one of our internationals in place was great, my mind was instantly numbed with the a million questions of how to assist my family…and not having an answer.

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted

Wednesday (05/15/2013}: I started my day in the gym with a morning run, which was awful, and started working on my schedule for the day; including several meetings with potential investors and other items that I still can speak on. While walking to the car from the gym I received an email from our head coach; she resigned along with the assistant coach. Noting family reasons, I wouldn’t object with the move, and granted them safe journey’s with their new adventures. The reality was; a week and a half away from the Kansas City Shock home opener and there was no coaching staff. I dialed all the Founders and explained the situation. The ladies had their first practice that night; of which I showed up at and broke the news to them. They were given the option to walk away if they’d like. Not. One. Player. Left. On my way out to the car I sent a text to a friend of mine in the soccer world and simply asked if the option presented itself, would they be interested in potentially being a candidate for the head coach position. A few seconds later I received, “Yes. We need to meet.” This eventful day was followed by a meeting with a potential investor that stretched to 1:00 AM on Thursday morning…an hour south of where I currently live.

First team meeting last week.

First team meeting last week.

Blessed are those in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven

Thursday (05/16/2013): I had been running around with all the events going on within the organization, and on the side note I was working on getting our Australian player into the United States as well. This was also involved in budgeting, financing, and international player travel. She had been crazy patient as well, and I kept pushing her back, and back, and back. Finally, the stage was set for her to get here. However, this also was the same day of a full staff meeting in Kansas City; which stretched to 11:00 PM and went over coaching options. Honesty, especially after Wednesday, it was a very stressful day. I went home worn out, somewhat defeated, and full of questions on how on earth this program was going to get off the ground.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.

Friday (05/17/2013): The Boston Breakers had come to town and wound up training on our home field [awesome stuff there]. The staff had unanimously agreed to offer the head coaching position to Wendy Louque. Interestingly Wendy had been my consultant and mentor on the soccer dynamics of Kansas City almost since the original creation of the program. Meaning, that in many instances she’s known our battles, struggles, and triumphs. Personally, she’s a nose to the grindstone Christian that’ll set you straight whether you like it or not. Factor in that she has a strong coaching reputation in the Kansas City area, along with being connected to several organizations throughout the region, she was a great find. Who would have thought it would have been someone that had been in the background of the program since Day 1? I was feeling optimistic, went to one of my stores to work that night, and then my phone started going off. Racheal, our Australian was stuck in the airport in Adelaide. I had made a rookie mistake, I booked her one way instead of round trip, blend that in with the visa waiver and that’s enough issues not to be allowed to board. Her mother and I worked tirelessly via Google+ to get the issue resolved, and with some amazing work by Qantas, things were set. However, it was enough for me to lose my appetite for dinner.

Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy

Saturday (05/17/2013): I finally hit rock bottom. I was stressed at work, I was stressed running, I was stressed at my parents house that night. In the wee hours of the night I saw that I had phone calls from Australia…again. This time Racheal had been delayed in Sydney due to engine issues in the plane [good enough reason to be delayed]. My head was spinning; this week had been a wreck, I was a wreck, time was ticking down for our home opener, so many unknown questions and that didn’t even include my family. I just broke down Saturday night in my apartment. Just lost it. It was after that pity party that things started to make more sense. I had done something that was against my standard norm, I tithed. While it wasn’t the action of tithing that creates insanity, it was doing something that kept me from being stagnant that brought about issues. See, if you’re a stagnant Christian, the devil could care less about you. You’re not a threat, you’re lazy. However, if you do something that provokes spiritual growth in yourself and may align the Kingdom towards continued success…you better be ready because everything imaginable is probably going to be hurled at you…all at once.

Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Sunday (05/18/2013): A dinner with the players, they were introduced to their new coach [who many of them knew from the past], many small meetings, and plenty of food to go around. Racheal had made it through Customs, and through the storms, we were able to pick her up at 9:53 PM last night. Meaning she slept better, her mother slept better, Darco slept better, and I slept better. The rain washed away the past week, the storm brought with it a new passenger of our ongoing journey, and the new day, a Monday [of all things], further instills in me that this is the right direction.

One From Scotland

One From Scotland

One from Australia

One from Australia

 

Team meeting while introducing Wendy Louque.

Team meeting while introducing Wendy Louque.

How do I know? Because the persecution feels so good.

-D-


Mobile Minutes: 100 Pounds


I awoke with 100 pounds on my chest. I felt miserable. This overwhelming burden just felt as if it was crushing me as I started off the day.

I took a shower, and several deep breaths. There was just this sensation of guilt, rejection, and failure just looming over my head. I hadn’t had any nightmares, and I couldn’t think of any triggers that had put me in that position. I felt…cursed.

This was most definitely not a moment of moping, complaining, or feeling bad for myself. This was just full on, heartfelt pain. The realization that I was slipping; falling away. There’s been so much going on in my life that realistically spiritually I’m there, but not where I should be. Does that make sense?

I’m not as dependent on God as I should be; most literally with my problems. No matter the size I try to conquer them myself, or run away from them [I'm an expert at that]. Rarely do I confront and confess before God what’s really on my mind, what’s really bothering me. Sure, He knows what’s going on inside, but personally I find the true challenge lies on whether or not I’ll talk about it out loud in the apartment [yes, making me sound like a lunatic most mornings]. Today, I swallowed my pride and just poured it out, for what felt likes hours of everything that’s been just eating at me [very little actually having to do with soccer]. Personally, it’s just been attitudes, temptations, and this daunting task of staying on the straight and narrow; and realizing that I cannot’ do it on my own.

I’m not saying I left for MoVal in high spirits; in fact even with coffee in hand I still wasn’t feel well by the time church started. It was during the sermon that the pieces started coming together; the preacher was talking about the notion of being a heretic. Claiming one thing, but doing another. Telling people that God controls your life, but still reserving certain parts of your life for just you…not God. Guess what? I fall into that category. There are several things that I’ve foolishly, repeatedly have tried to conquer on my own and reserved it just for me.

Absolute stupidity.

The rains falling tonight as I send this message out; a relaxing ending to a perplexing day in my mind. I’m trying, but even with me trying to do the right thing continually; I cannot get it down without Him.

-D-


Mobile Minutes: Ten Minutes


I’ve made a commitment to myself to be in bed no later than 12:00 AM each night during the work week.

It’s incredible how smooth of a day I had until ten minutes prior to midnight. It just goes to show you that the devil will do whatever he can to discourage you.

Sadly, I confess that I’m discouraged. You know when you work around the clock to build attention on something that you’re working on; something that’s going to be incredible and people just write you off?

Tonight, I’ve been written off…again.

While most times I’d just take it for what it is…this time it was close to home, it was in my backyard, and I’m just discouraged. I feel embarrassed and like a failure to the people around me because I wasn’t able to perform.

It’s 12:03 AM and not only am I still not in bed, I’m headed to bed with a heavy heart and a worn soul.

-D-


O: Lost In Communication


It’s the weekend; as stated before, I’m working through the week, and that’s alright.

I’m just spending time lost in communication.

I’m still working on a “O” draft, but for now I just want to type a bit. I’m not tired, full of sleep, and have a wonderful evening planned with my girlfriend, MC, and Jim. however, the mind never stops, it’s a raging machine always looking for answers. My girlfriend, being ever-so-supportive is always telling me not to worry, don’t stress, “God will take care of it”, and I instantly notice how easy it is to preach to someone that God has it under control [not a shot at her, but in regards to myself] and yet when it comes time for you to show your faith, and let Him have control…it feels impossible.

We were eating breakfast at IHOP a few days ago, since everything else was closed in town due to the snow, and we were talking about stress, fears, and the unknown.

From the innocent, young adult side; the Kansas City Shock is one of the scariest things I’ve ever been a part of. It’s “faith 101″, you have to have it to survive. There is literally no guarantees with anything in this business; something is changing on a daily basis, and I’m always in fear of making the wrong move.

More notably I see what lies down the road, what’s “next” for our program and I know the requirements that need to be in place, but I’m not always sure how they’re going to come about. It’s a horrible, gut-wrenching feeling. Until you take a deep breath, step back, and watch some of the things that have transpired:

  • Didn’t get the home field we wanted; ended up wrapping up into a brand new facility instead
  • Hype? Not a ton, but being able to speak at entrepreneurship conferences in Kansas City can quickly change that
  • Not knowing how to enter the program into the league; the immediate fans changed all of that
  • The group of people within the city, and within the country that send messages of encouragement
  • The talented graphic design company that was created out of nothing, but whom I’ve known for my life during college and beyond
  • Immediate player issues, and when looking back it has become a filter process for the dynamics of the program
  • Getting the news press left and right? No, instead we’re tapping into the younger, up-and-coming journalists within our area

Most of that took place in a few days time span, and of course that’s only a tip of the iceberg.

This is where it becomes hard; you start to doubt, you fear you’re in the wrong direction, and then suddenly…out of nowhere, this presence takes over and shows you something that immediately just happened without you realizing. A nugget to just hold you over and keep you patient; like manna and quail.

I guess, even though I screw up, doubt, and don’t always rest easily; in the end I can only ask this…

…whom shall I fear?

-D-


Mobile Minutes: Restless


Trying to sleep tonight. Very restless. Deep down I’m a people pleaser…shamefully…which means that I battle the realization that I’ll never make every person happy.

That fact eats at me in my sleep…

-D-


Mobile Minutes: Stupid Desert


I wish this was a rant about the journey out into the desert in Nevada a few weeks ago, but sadly this is not the case.

It would be very neat if my life was reflective of a really cool Biblical story; David, Joshua, Elijah, John, Paul, etc…

Instead, I find myself stuck with the Hebrews.

Owning the Kansas City Shock has definitely had its ups and downs…and some of them very extreme, but the ship continues to sail [somehow].

Repeatedly I’ve outlined the unique process of this program; dating back to my college days, and how everything comes full circle.

Today, we got our home field, and it is very, very nice [no football lines]!

We have players coming, and one specifically that is really going to shake up some media outlets as well.

There are so, so many things go right.

I have manna, I have quail, I have water, I have life…so…what else is there for me to want?

Egypt. Bondage. Slavery.

It makes absolutely no sense. It didn’t with the Hebrews and it doesn’t now.

I can stand and look at the path that is the Kansas City Shock; be left with no excuse on how crazy awesome the ride has been, and you know what I’m going to do when I lay down to sleep?

Stress out about the unknowns.

Talk about feeling dumb. There are so many things in the past year that probably shouldn’t have gone right realistically, and yet they have. However, instead of looking at those events in awe; I’m going to doubt, stress, and panic.

No wonder God needs a sense of humor; He has to watch this excuse of ‘logic’ all day. I frequently suggest that I want the Kansas City Shock to be so dynamic that people won’t have a choice but to say, “Wow! There’s no way some random person could pull that off. Someone bigger was in charge.”

And for as much as I say that I think I may need to be the one that needs that event the most.

-D-


Mobile Minutes: Steel


I listened in church today.

No, that isn’t uncommon.

However, between the baby’s crying and the child behind me puking [poor thing!] there were plenty of distractions to keep my eyes and ears away from the attention on the stage.

It was about the new year, it was about steel, and of course it was all about God.

It isn’t necessary to go into the entire lesson of today’s explanation of Scripture, but I must admit that I felt convicted. I felt out of tune. I felt as if I wasn’t doing enough to focus my attention where it should be: God.

Sure, in front of a camera [I hope] I’ll display and announce where my loyalty lies. The Kansas City Shock only exists because of God’s grace [that better be on my tombstone]. And, I would hope that I would put the same thoughts on this page at any given moment.

But what about the mind? What about the areas that people can’t see, that only God can reach. What lies in there? The frustrated guy about sponsorship’s, the questionable guy that’s curious about recent events in the women’s soccer world, the boy that sometimes finds himself just lost between meetings and freeways. There is a soul that still doubts.

That, I am ashamed of.

I think it is natural [remember, since the fall of man humans without the grace of Christ are inherently sinful] to try to take charge, to be in control, to lead. However, where does our leading constantly lead to? Failure. Demise. Hopelessness.

The season is quickly approaching, and some areas I don’t have nailed down yet. Am I alone? Nope. In fact, I bet there are programs way, way in the back of the pack. However, in the recent month, especially when being sick; I just wanted to control everything, let my mind do the work, and let my effort prevail.

That isn’t how God works. He isn’t all about the ‘human pride’ complex. Even this weekend, I made a business mistake. I won’t go into details, but it was a mistake none-the-less, and I can’t ‘fix it’. It could have been avoided, but only if I would have slowed down, thought out the process, and most importantly: focused more on God, then my ‘works’.

Our pastor compared a lot of these thoughts to steel, hard steel and soft steel [he works in a steel plant]; soft steel has potential, but hard steel has to be heated up and made soft before it can be used.

I was hard steel. God had to ‘turn it up’ on me to get me to soft steel [reflect to the beginning of this site if you need clarity for that]. I don’t want to be hard steel, I don’t want to revert back to the life I had. It’s a daily fear. Every time I make a mistake, especially along the business front, I grow fearful that I’m becoming ‘hard’ again. If I upset my girlfriend, the same fear comes in.

I firmly believe that God can use me, and I can see the path that it’s on. Trust me, I dream at night of the day that people look at the Kansas City Shock and just say, “Something great is behind that program.” I know it is possible, I’ve seen too much already to not believe it, but I also know that my mistakes, my flaws can get in the way of His glorious plan.

In my world; it’s so, so much more then a game, even a business. It’s more than a field. A sponsor. Even the players. Personally, it’s about finding the area that God wants me in, in order for Him to demonstrate His greatness.

Consider this post…just honesty.

-D-


O: Into The Unknown


Most of the time I just look at January 1st as the next year, another year in my life, your life, and our existence as a whole. Things like candy canes and Christmas trees are on record breaking sales, and children are going stir crazy wanting to go to school to show [break] their newest, coolest technology gift.

It’s all about a new cycle, but in many ways it is just a change of date. From 31 to 1, like so many other months in the year.

With that said, I look at 2013 with shortness of breath. Unlike past years where I have seemed to have the mindset of, “Just make it till…”, I see 2013 as a year of endless possibilities, and one very special ride.

The obvious fact is that in four/five months from now I’m going to be held responsible for the success or failure of the Kansas City Shock. It’s realistically a short stint of a season, stretching from May to early August, compared to professional leagues, but the time and effort that has already gone into it; I’d like to say that attempt would rival any professional program.

Heading into the early morning of the second day of the thirteenth year of the second millennium I find myself peering down this slope of unknown. Needing to tie down funding, home fields, players, and everything else in between is daunting, yet refreshing. I think back to two years ago when I was content with being a teacher for thirty to forty years of my life, not saying that’s a bad lifestyle, living in the middle of the state of Missouri; going to the same church as my now ex-wife’s family, and just living the standard, average American life.

Peering down the scope of a roller coaster has never felt so invigorating. I would say that I love the risk and reward that lies with every twist in turn, but in reality sake I just want people to be able to walk away thinking, “Wow, there is something, or someone, much more powerful in charge of this program.” If my life’s work is summed up by a field, a ball, and two goals; so be it! What’s more important is to be able to look past the hype, press, media and everything else and simple ask, “Did I succeed in my mission?”

What is my mission? Simple, it’s to glorify God. The brass tacks point towards the absolute reality that my mistakes, and my misdeeds and poor judgement cost me everything. It’s only by God’s grace that I didn’t go bankrupt. It’s only by God’s grace that I found a job making sandwiches [again]. It’s only by His grace that I received a promotion. It’s only become of Him that I was able to relocate to Kansas City, only then was I able to cover a women’s soccer match, and only with the surroundings of 17,000 screaming fans, was I able to see a vision clear as day. Since then, there hasn’t been one paper filed, one idea scripted, one phone call made, or e-mail sent that hasn’t had His hand on it.

Call me brash, bold, and careless; and I’ll probably agree. However, if I’m to be known for anything, it best be my God being shown through my human transparency.

-D-


O: Cut Throat


…welcome to the cut throat side…

I never thought, in the small existence of this blog [realistically] that I’d end up writing a post like this. As has been the theme for the past several days; the acknowledgement and anticipation of a new professional women’s soccer league, along with a new women’s professional soccer team in Kansas City has had my direct attention.

To the average reader; this isn’t that big of a deal, and the past couple days I’ve had to sit down with people and try to explain what’s going on, and the hype behind all of this. So you, the most devoted reader I have, I’m going to try the same with. Some of this will be review, so; try to keep up:

In September of last year I was honored to be able to cover the USA vs Canada women’s soccer match that was held at Livestrong Sporting Park in Kansas City, Kansas. I was in the media box of this brand new stadium, on the field with the players [and these athletes are my icons mind you], and I also got to absorb  the 17,000 screaming fans throughout the stadium [of all genders and ages]; it was breath taking.

Prior to moving back up north; while I was residing down in southern Missouri I started to knock around the idea of what it would take to build my own soccer club; an all girls competitive program. It would consist of those with equal skill with less resources [money], and through ethics, morals, and faithful players and fans, we’d show that section of the world that anything was possible when passion overwhelmed expectation. While thinking about this, I started looking into the different leagues that existed for women’s soccer in the United States; W-League, a premier division associated with the United Soccer League [USL], the WPSL [Women's Premier Soccer League] which was a private entity that was derived from the USL W-League, but wasn’t a part of the United States Soccer Federation [tricky, right?], and the WPS [Women's Professional Soccer]. The WPS were the ‘cream of the crop’ so-to-speak; the Hope Solo’s, Alex Morgan’s, Abby Wambach’s, etc…similar to the former WUSA [former professional league] the WPS front office over spent, under marketed, and eventually due to travel costs and poor showing of fans [and media] the league painfully died over a court case from a crazed owner.

That was around March/April of this year [2012]. A month prior to that, through my soccer blog and Twitter, I started to knock around the idea of building a competitive club [multiple ages] in the county that I grew up in, in northern Missouri. Being as how this was after the divorce, being broke, living in the truck, etc…my life had panned out a bit better, and it seemed somewhat doable. However, it was met with enough resistance that I placed it on the back burner and started in a different direction; Kansas City.

I had over the years, primarily the past two, watched professional men’s soccer flourish in Kansas City, so I thought; why not do the same on the women’s side? However, I immediately had some issues. There was no way this team would be part of the WPS, because the league was almost dead and it would have been a worthless investment. I had no staff, no coach, no players, and no direction. So, I did what any smart person would have done; I went to Twitter. I started jawing up a team in Kansas City, and people loved the concept. A few men stepped up to say they’d help and it was settled; we were going to bring women’s soccer at the premier division to Kansas City.

By July of this year we were able to host our own summer kick-off tournament, and meet some great people, such as goal keeping glove maker; Pro Ebiria [makes gloves for the goal keeper at Sporting Kansas City], and even some of the staff and players of the Missouri Comets, the men’s professional indoor team was there as well.

The tournament was a success for the most part, and we had filed our papers with the league we were ready to go, and then we started to hear rumors about a new professional league that was going to be created in the United States [this would be the third attempt in the past decade], and that the United States Soccer Federation was going to be backing it [similar comparison: Government bailout for GM]; that meant national players were going to have home teams to play on, salaries would actually exist [most leagues in the United States don't have salaries because they allow college players on their roster, it's an NCAA issue]. However, the catch would be that this league would be designed to assist ‘feed’ the national team roster [since we all know women's soccer is just about the national team...], and it would effect 5% of the players in the country, but the other 95% [those without the skill, knowledge, name, school, pedigree, money] would be left out.

I didn’t give the new league much thought until I got the bomb dropped on me last Thursday when it announced that one of the new eight teams would be in Kansas City.

The same city that my team/business, the Kansas City Shock, was going into, and they were both going to be started in 2013.

So in less then twenty four hours Kansas City went from having no women’s soccer teams at the competitive level; to two, including one with a $500,000 franchise tag and national players from Canada, USA, and Mexico.

…it all started with a concept for a high school club program in southwest Missouri…

I would later learn that the new teams and league started to be put together in July of this year, and I also learned that the owners of the new team in Kansas City…were the exact same owners of the men’s indoor team that came out to our tournament in July.

This is business. This is politics. This is soccer.

Naturally, I’ve given long hard thoughts on everything [and slept very little]. There’s a lot of faith going into the Kansas City Shock, and I mean a lot. It’s my ministry, my calling, and my lifetime investment. I’m reaching people through this outlet that I would have never imagined elsewhere.

Today, for my Friday after Thanksgiving; I spent the day in a coffee shop talking to our head coach and general manager; making each next move of our program very carefully.

In many ways; to make it make a bit more sense to the reader, my life is now like this: I’m the local gas station and the international truck stop just opened up across the street. See the stress?

It’s a hard place to be; soccer politics isn’t clean, it really isn’t; it can take Major League Baseball to an entirely different level. It’s to the point to where even on this site, my own personal page; I have to be careful not to say ‘too much’ about the Kansas City Shock’s developments just because, as I learned via LinkedIn tonight, there are all sorts of people watching my every move at this moment. The fascinating thing about a new professional team being announced in Kansas City [which it does have its own name] is that our popularity [especially after the press release stating that we're not the professional team, we're the premier team] has actually increased. Quite an interesting development.

As my girlfriend can tell you; there have been a lot of loud evenings in the apartment, lots of chatter with God. I’m definitely not mad at Him, because my dream is coming true; my hometown has become Soccer City USA. Truthfully, I still get frightened. Our tryouts are in a month, and there are some areas that I’m still working on, and there are so many times that I’m sitting there thinking, “OK God, I have no idea what’s going to happen, I’m just trying to do what is right”. At the moment, that means having to quiet down the chatter of my soccer life; who would have thought? I’m just a small town kid, wrote a blog about being divorced, works at Subway, and found myself in the spotlight of Kansas City and soccer. What?

You just can’t make this stuff up.

This is business. This is politics. This is soccer.

-D-


#getyourpraiseon


Keep pouring water…

The age old issue of this professional women’s soccer team, the United States Soccer Federation, Kansas City, and the Kansas City Shock continues to not go away [as I guess I'd suspect]. I wish I had answers, the perfect plan, what to do, how to protect, enforce, promote, grow, etc…but tonight I’m just a 25 year old young adult without answers.

I say that very, very humbly.

However, instead of dwelling on the problems that are on hand. I refuse to consume myself, and I must promote this story instead:

Earlier tonight, on one of my many soccer meetings, I was able to speak to a man named Jim. I don’t know much about this individual except that he travels for business, he is from Kansas City, and he is a friend of our strength & conditioning coach. Truthfully, I feel terrible, but I feel like I dominated the conversation [that's why I refer to as merely a 'business pitch']. He wanted to know what the Kansas City Shock is, and the angle that we are approaching the women’s soccer world.

I think it was about fifteen or twenty minutes into the conversation; I was talking about how the Kansas City Shock came to be, how it mimicked aspects of my past life, and that’s when I could feel it…

…this pressure forming inside of me…

…my heart started to race…

…my mind was trying to catch up, but it has no chance of stopping what happened next…

I merely chuckled at the table we were sitting at and simply stated, “You know, I would fail my mission if I didn’t say it was God who created this…”

I don’t know Jim from the man in the moon, but just like the meeting in downtown Kansas City, just like the interview over the telephone, just like the report over the news back in March…

I just can’t keep quiet. I can’t, I literally cannot; if I speak about the Kansas City Shock, and I tell the world about the success or fears behind it, I cannot stay quiet about the love, the generosity  and the mission that God has given me. Otherwise, my ministry, my calling, my life will be done in vain.

I still have no idea what to do about finding the right sponsors, I have no clue what on earth to contemplate knowing that the United States Soccer Federation is breathing down my neck, in my backyard. I. Do. Not. Know. The. Answer.

I just know that tonight, on rare occasion, I did what was required; and in turn I pleased my Father.

-D-


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