Gears are spinning, laying here, searching for rest to find me. It is another silent night with chaos in my head. Pondering futures, ignoring pasts, and attempting to forge ahead.
I’ve learned that I march to my own drum because stepping in rhythm to anyone else’s deprives myself of unique opportunities; constructing my own destiny.
I cannot focus on what was; the temptations to overflow the heart of petty history blocks out my potential, inherent responsibilities.
A few quick thoughts this afternoon…
1. Starbucks new Starbucks Iced Double Shot with 20g of Protein is absolutely insane. I’m in heaven.
2. Give it up for afternoon naps. I’m not sure what it is, but two days in a row I’ve had a very short nap around 4:00 PM, and I mean I’m out like a rock. It’s incredible.
3. A huge thank you to you crazy number nerds! I was notified by WordPress last night that my ‘stats were booming’, and then I found out that yesterday the site had over 150 visits after this quick blog appeared. Again, thank you so much!
I’m still learning how to recognize physical exhaustion while training. There’s such a huge difference between running with energy and running on empty.
Felt heavy in the legs during training this afternoon, after a smooth 5K yesterday this sadly makes sense.
Fell asleep at Starbucks waiting for Darco later…
Fell asleep heading home after Darco got off work…
It’s a good thing this is a light wweekeek heading into a racing weekend.
Darco will never know how many times I’ll fall asleep at night with the samesame, quiet prayer…
God, please don’t let her give up on me.
I booked it yesterday. Working from 6:00AM to 8:30PM non-stop. Along with schedule changes at school my day was rather chaotic.
However, with all of that comes this kind reality also…
I slept like a rock last night. I moved once due to a nightmare, but that was it. On too of that I woke up this morning completely refreshed.
I will throw up some praise for an awesome sleep offering!
I could feel it earlier this week. It started with a few sneezes and a restless night. My only prayer was that my body would hold out until Christmas Break.
It did…and that was it.
3:00 PM and I’m heading to bed. The cold has finally caught up with me, and now is a great time to recover.
Let me tell you how last night functioned…
Got off work at 4:45 (stayed late to cover for a teacher). Grabbed dinner to-go from my friends place, and arrived home around 6:30. Finished dinner at 7:00, and fell asleep, while talking to Darco, not waking up until 9:00. Left the couch at 9:00, brushed my teeth, and went directly to bed.
It’s currently 4:30 and I’m wide awake. I’m not complaining because this is precisely how my week has been, just overwhelmingly exhausting. I honestly wonder if my body is wiped from fighting off the recent flu that’s been going through the school, or from dealing with the stress of our recent financial shortfalls.
Either way, I don’t feel guilty for finally getting some much needed rest.